it hasn’t even been a year and I was in another horrible accident, WHICH WASN’T MY FAULT THIS TIME EITHER.
i feel like i’m involved in a sick, twisted, reality movie based on the Final Destination series.
my car is smashed from both ends, i’m completely fine, so I have that going for me. But the two people involved, the guy that cut me off and the guy that hit me, their cars are totally fixable. if my car was already a compact car before, it’s realllyyyyyy compact now. it’s not fair….they did wrong and yet everything is being taken away from me. if my car is totaled, I lose my car (they’ll give me money for my car but since it’s only worth $3,800 at most), I’ll lose my job, I’ll have NO way to get to school, I’ll be confined to this house and constantly manipulated by my parents….bottom line, I’m gonna lose my fuckin mind and there’s nothing I can do about it.
I just wanted to go see Derek and meet his mom. But instead I became a human sandwich and almost killed Derek and eating lunch with his family felt like those last meals inmates get before their death sentence. And of course my father makes it out to be my fault.
I know he’s just frustrated but jfc shut the fuck up and be NICE. If I was even remotely feeling like my old self again, that’s all gone down the drain. I just want to cry and I don’t know if it’s my hormones, because OH YEAH MOTHER FUCKING NATURE IS HERE WHEN THIS SHENANIGANS WENT DOWN, or I’m still reeling from the last accident. …..if anything had happened to Derek I really wouldn’t have forgiven myself…..
and to top it all off, the guy that cut me off flat out lied to the officer in front of me. Like he had some serious balls to come at me with his blatant lies. Thanks to the accident, my mace was dislodged from the seat, so don’t you try me. I would’ve used it on him too if Derek hadn’t held me back. I’ll pull the traffic cameras on your ass….coming around telling lies because you fucked up.
YOU DON’T CUT SOMEONE OFF AT A RED LIGHT AND PRETEND YOU DIDN’T. YOU COULD HAVE KILLED SOMEONE.
I’m so unbelievably angry and upset and I just want him to be fined, or put in some type of hell, and to have my car back. The car place won’t let me keep my rims if they total it. LIKE YOU ARE GOING TO CRUNCH IT UP INTO AN ITTY BITTY BALL AND PUT IT IN A JUNK YARD, WHY THE FUCK CAN’T I HAVE THEM?!?!?!?!?!??!
I just want to shake someone. this is a horrible nightmare and i want to wake up and be okay and go on with my life. i don’t want to deal with the insurance company for NINE months again. i literally just got done dealing with the last one in June….if there is a God, he’s a sick twisted bastard and I’m resentful towards him.
and I’m fully aware that this is not the end of the world….i’m just angry that people can get away with this. the poor guy that hit me is paying for everything and the sick fuck that cut me off because he was in too goddamn of a hurry, gets off with a broken bumper that gets to be replaced for free. when he put a lot of lives at risk because he was in a hurry. or missed his turn. i don’t wanna here his piss poor excuse. there is none. and he doesn’t deserve the benefit of the doubt at this point. he won’t be getting my forgiveness. God may be merciful, but Karma has no limits.
I’m bitter and resentful and I don’t care if anyone thinks I’m being heartless. Don’t try and pretend you know what I’m going through and don’t lessen the blow for this guy. I wouldn’t have cared so much if he even showed one single ounce of remorse. no.
he did the deed. didn’t bother to ask if everyone was okay, but the guy who hit me was extremely upset over the ordeal, and the guy that cut me off? He just asked me if I had insurance…..so excuse the hell out of me for being pissed off into oblivion.